Here I am, at eight in the morning, trying to put in to words how I feel to no success. Its the start of a new semester and here I find myselt in this beat down old room of a computer lab, tapping down on the keyboard trying to find words.

I'm usually not one for profound words and that could be the reason why I find this such a daunting task.

Yeah I'm not too bright.

But since I have cut this blog of from the rest of the world. I guess its just me and a few of my brethren that actually take time to read what I have to say.

*15 minutes of staring blankly at the screen*

I still can't find the words. Here's something else.

Time...

The essence of which buildeth and teareth down. Which giveth and taketh away. The ticking of the clock will show a 24 hour day but alas does any know when it will end? The end of time? Could the end really come to something that is eternal, which ticks one and one long after the last human's heart has already stopped beating? With time comes answers to questions profound but along with those answers come unexplainable question. But in all, one thing is for sure, in time comes death and death will come in time.

Why is it that the only sure thing in a mortal man's life be something so dark?

Well I still can't find the words so I'll put it off till later.

Thoughts:

There will be times in life you wake up in the morning and you just thank God for that day. It doesn't happen a lot in my life but it still happens.

During this semester, undoubtedly one of my most trying semesters so far, I had to rush a 4 person assignment alone, I got news that someone I care for alot is leaving, a church leader passed on, and a whole lot of adjustments to be made in life.

But...

Its during those times I realize how God really does His work. If you ask for patience, he gives you a chance to be patient (God knows what the Blob put me through this year), You ask for courage, He gives you a chance to be courageous, You ask for love, He gives you a chance to love.

So, If you pray to be rich be ready to work, If you pray for A's get ready to study and so on.

To the post,

On

Exams, Kajang, Australia, Study Groups, Singledom, Work and Carlsberg.

Exams.

Its done and over with. The pre-results are out and I passed thank God! I really thought the Blob had done me in for one of my subjects. Its been a really tough year, not for only me but the rest of my hardworking classmates. The actually results will be aout later this month or early next month.

Of course with the end of the vile examinations come the hearty celebrations. And we did it at...

Kajang.

The land flowing with satay and kuah kacang. Well woke up early that day to fetch V and then met up with Li-Mei and Bra-Man. After dropping Li-Mei at Pudu Bus station, to Kajang we flew.
Bra drove at 160 km/h. Between that and the pumping Linkin Park Music in the background is a state of equilibrium. It really was a ride of a life time. God Knows a Proton can't push that limit without flying off the road.

Let me tell you that the best curry mee in this vicinity can be found in Kajang. Wonders happen when you just keep it simple. The taste was superb! And the company even better. When i thought it couldn't get any better, along came lunch Sweet and savory stewed pork! Heaven!

Well activities in between eating were Dota-ing (yes, I know I swore it off but...), some gaming on the PS2 and an extemely hilarious game of Lego Star Wars. J and Paul playing obviously. Then came Kajang satay. I have to say its over rated but nice non the less.

Australia

Sigh. This is one place that takes the people I I'm closest to away. My best friend is leaving for Australia soon if all goes well. There goes my last basketball kaki, (one already left). Haih. There is more but ... I'd rather not talk about it.

Study Groups

One would think that when you go to a study group you study. The four of us (J, Paul, V and me) have proved otherwise. Whoever who told you you need to study during a study group to pass your exams is lying! Well, don't take my advise literally okay. It only works on us. We had lots of ice creams , insults and coffee, not to mention, a particularly yellow stress ball. and we all passed!

Singledom

Well might as well make it official. I am no longer single. Yes, I now have a girlfriend. Its been going on for quite a while. Won't say any detail but just know I am a very happy and an extemely lucky man to have someone like her in my life.

Work

Ive been working my butt off, these past few weeks. Filling the very empty holiday season. Gathered quite a bit of money collected. Well I'm the set up crew for the CIBA vision fresh look roadshow around campuses and it pays a whopping 80 bucks and hour + free coloured contacts. I look nice with gray. Plus its just doing the set up and packing so its a pretty good deal. Will be working a week into the opening of classes.

Carlsberg

The one dog wrecking crew. And also my new loyal companion. yeah, he's my new dog. A mixed blood like I am, This dog has to be the most cunning and mischivious dog I know. I'm so proud. Why Carlsberg? Well his coat of fur is golden with a stripe of white down the nose area. Kinda like a glass of beer no?

Well thats basicly my whole holiday and its coming to a close shortly. Time to go back to studying.

The end of an era.

Today was the day I rid myself of my last assignment. The assignment from hell, simply because i had the displeasure of having W in my group. I had too pull all nighters to finish the assignment.

Words cannot begin to express how glad I am to be handing this one up. Let me 1st thank Jerry for his help without which, it might never have finished. So happy.

Well, I prepared a presentation that was very businesslike and I was ready to explain the simple design we had down to the very core.

The it occured to me that I shouldn't try to hard. I took the notes I made and threw em' in the trash and I winged the presentation. Quite happy I did. I made class more interesting.

After that we ( M, Boz, J, Paul and me) went to Berjaya Times square for some lunch and a session of stress relieving. One word. Arcade. I no longer can play arcade games very well. I got owned. Well it was enjoyable.

After that was the even more enjoyable walk in the park. =D

Romance under a clear midnight sky.

He sits on a marble laced wooden chair in front of his trusty companion while he listens to the 'Goo goo Dolls' and delves into words to describe his inspiration, to describe how his life has change so dramatically within the short span of the minute hand.

Now he is living in his dreams. Dreams that he would want to last forever, if forever exsisted. But no matter what would come further on in life, this is one instance that he will remember, laying on a kiddie slide, holding his love's hand and sharing the beauty and majesty of a clear midnight sky.

The tale doesn't end here. It comes with time.

Many of you would be jumping to conclusions now. Continue jumping, its fun to watch.

Halt! My Heart Just Stopped!

His palms are sweaty. A million thoughts still racing through his head. He never thought he'll have to do this now. Too soon? Too late? But no he couldn't just let her walk away. Not now, not ever. At least not without trying. He would have waited but circumstances aren't allowing it.

He mind is pacing, filled with 'what ifs' and 'maybes'. His heart weak. Its just been too long since he has did this. He had planned long before but his mind just keeps jumping through his scattered thoughts he just couldn't get the words out.

One deep breath. Then another. Then another.

He is collected now.

His mouth begins to move. He utters every question carefully as it lead up to what he really wanted to ask her. Then, he took one big leap and asked.

And he waited for a response. After what seemed like an eternity it came.

"Are you for real?"

The rest is a story for another time

She who is 17.

She is loud. She is cheery. She's a rocker chick and she has no sense of direction!

Oh yeah, and she's 17. And she's a great friend.

Blessed 17th Birthday Tee Tze Mien.

Discouraged

I speak the truth and you ask me to lie. I speak my mind and stifle my thoughts. I speak with no ill will and you somehow perceive it as such. What was written was merely self reflection. It would be clear, if only you look pass your shallow mind set.

Oh ye of so called experience and wisdom.

Discouraged.

Truly discouraged.

Le Shadow Carnivale

Ooh la la. UTAR ball nite 07. It was better than i could have ever expected. Kudos to the organizing commitee for a job well done. Well some of the pictures are poorly taken and some are even blur, I apologize, but its put there nonetheless.

Me and Tiffany

Me and my Macha! Pui Yin.

Me and bear bear a.k.a. Yoke Fai

Me and Suet June.

Me and Vic. Sorry, none of our pics came out right.

The awesome stage

Food!

Friends from the braod casting class who also happen to be on the same table.

There was a fashion show. Some awesome, over the top costumes were displayed.

Enter Phantom Myers

Random shot of Camillia and friend (sorry didn't get your name).

Photos were taken kinda late into the night and kinda lazily taken. None of our masks were displayed.

On Donating Blood

Some weeks back 4 of us (Cax, Kwah, Unc. E.T and me) went to donate blood. It was a rather funny incident but i'll just post the pictures. Cax and Kwah were first timers, by the way.

In the waiting room with coffe and biscuits. Buat macam rumah sendiri!

The arms of the first timers. Never cry summore!

We had fun for a good cause so its a wholly good experience, save for the nasty rash cax got.

On Death.

Condolences to the Koh family on the passing of the late Dr. Koh Eng Kiat.

*takes a moment of silence*

(This part has been removed as requested by "higher powers")

P.S: I realize that words have lost the blogwar to the pictures. The words just couldn't match the fire power of the pictures. So I realize not many would read this. After this post, the only posts i will put up is that of pictures, and I don't take much so ... its gonna be slow.

On Stanley's return.

Let the late nights roll! Stanley Ong is back. After a long hiatus of having late nights out, the valid reason has returned! Big Bro Stanley.

Game of choice this season?

Darts of the 301 open in/open out variety. None of us has enough skill to play a double in/out or anything of that sort. Heh.

Ramlee Burgers!
Slop on the mayo and ketchup! Forget about what the meat tastes like!

I need to watch Transfomers. Anybody wanna come with?

There's always a girl.

This post is based on a random thought. I was thinking about movies earlier and I realized something that almost all have in common. Unless its based on a religious event or a gay movie. In can be about pirates, murders, robots, people that fly, combust, behave like a spiders, turn green or have a multiple personality disorders.

There is always a girl. Well ninety nine percent of the time.

The girl usually plays a pivotal role in the movie, if she isn't already the main character that is.

She is the source of the hero's strength, his downfall, his mistake, his inspiration or the reason he looses his mind. You know, after seeing all the movies in the world you'd think that guys can't live without women.

That is a fact! Thats why God created women. So my questionto the guys is this...... When is the last time you appreaciated the woman you love? LOL

This coming from a single guy! Irony!

On Being Me.

I am the way I because I am what God has made me. In the previous post (which I took off cause its kinda depressing) I was wondering, how my life would have been if I stayed there (Segambut).

I prayed.

I realize that its not where I am that makes the difference. I'm just naturally like this (I could've turned out worst) and my life is good.

Taking in slow and easy. Thats important. Well for me at least. Work life ain't that easy (as my time at Astro has revealed) and I want to live my life to the fullest.

The more I think about it, the more I realize how lucky I am to be me. I wouldn't be much of a person to talk too if I was too serious. Well thats it for my emo/depressed moment.

FEAR ME WORLD! I am Kelvin and I am Dysfunctional and proud of it!

Off to spew havoc on the world.

On going down memory lane.

Well since I just turned 21 and I'm conforming to the picture blog thing and on somebody's request here is pictures of my evolution. Be ready to laugh your butt off....

Ready?

One month old.....

Laughing yet? Ah! but there's more!

If you scroll/look down you get...

me at 6 months old.

Dying yet? Yes I looked better when I was younger, then I evolved...

It began at ..

4 years old

When I was 5

Now this post means something. Its taken with my late Grand-dad. I think the only role model my dad and I have in common.

This was taken so far back. When I was 6 I think. The one in front is my cousin that I haven't seen in so long. A teen already.

This was taken on my ninth birthday. WHAT WAS I DOING? or thinking for that matter.

Most probably wasn't thinking.

How I miss being this tall! I was a head taller than most of my classmates.

I was 11.

Now it hits. You know what.

13 years old

These guys were my best friends for a good part of my teenage life. Until I lost contact. If you guys happen to see this drop a msg.

15 years old - PMR

16 years of life. The last time I hung out with Ian and Josh.

Then I turned 17 and the rest I shall not enclose anymore.

Well thats all. Hope you guys are still alive from all that laughing. Its been a good 21 years. Very good indeed. The 2 people I have to thank....

Back when my dad still looked good (He was into the whole LALA thing. Bell Bottoms and tight shirts).. my mom still looks pretty much the same. Looks a little bit older maybe.

Well enjoy!

On good days.

Today has been good. It didn't start out the way I wanted it to but it was good. I'm happy to say the least. Spirits are back up from yesterday. I kinda lost my head worrying about something that I have no say or no chance to change. I vented it out that night and I'm back, the same old fatso I was and dead proud of it.

Did some balling this evening. Didn't win all of my games but I played well. Even did some trash talking for the last game! (Sorry Iain! Didn't mean a word) . Before that I went to Secret Recipe to get a cake. Chocolate banana! Makes any cake in Subang seem second rate. Before that, Rally 07 practice. Things are shaping up to be rather 'interesting'. I say that with every sense of the word. Proud of Barry, C. Ngiam and Inez. They all did good. Was supposed to go out with my boys this afternoon. Didn't happen. Oh well.

Lets talk about having chances and not taking them. Some people have a clear cut chance of achieving what they want. And yet they don't take it. Why is that?

Sometimes its important to just take the chance that is given and grab life by the neck. Need to say I love you to someone? Say it! Need to ask for the forgiveness of sins? (everyone needs that. Jesus is the way to go people) Pray it. Don't wait. Need to say sorry? Now is the time. You might regret it. Most of the time, you will. Out!

I'm SICK!!

How I resent being sick. Body feels helpless. Doesn't even want to get up. I need to get better and I need to do it soon. Assignments piling.

But when everything seems DOWN

There is always SOME

NONSENSE

Too TRIP you up.

For more nonsense visit http://www.nonsensetrip.com

A word of thank you.

I would like to thank a few people that helped make my life a whole lot easier while preparing for Father's Day service.

First off, let me thank God. No major setbacks happened. After the game show idea was scraped we managed to come up with a whole new idea fairly quickly.

Rancor, Li Teng and Cax for helping with almost every single aspect of it.

Nezu and Jess for their help with the backdrop. I would have died getting the right estimations.

Jon for his help with the video. Awesome stuff.

Jess, Ee leen and Tze Mien with the wrapping of the gifts. In such a short time I might add.

The worship team OHP personel.

The church admin for all the cash forwards given.

and to anyone I might have forgotten.

Thank You

I had loads of time to kill before dinner so I grabed a pen and started thinking of something to write. Surprise surprise, something emo. Not all that good, just something simple. Have to practice more.

On Admiration

Beauty to be admired,

To be cherished,

And adored,

For such beauty,

Are the rarest kind,

It fills your heart,

With strong emotions,

Of Love,

Of Greatfulness,

And of Joy,

That is Your beauty.

Kross

Picture was taken with a SonyE W810 walkman phone 1.3 MP.(nice?)

On 愛


気づかない人を愛することは苦痛である場合もある。 しかし苦痛が価値があること彼女の微笑を見るため、公正な感じ。

Happy Father's Day!

To the greatest living man in my life.

On being 21 and grateful.

Yeah you heard right. I'm no longer twenteen.

21 years of being alive. 21 years of joy, tears, learning and all that jazz.

I just want to thank all of you people (you know who you are) who has made this retarded journey I call life so much more colourful.

Thank you, Danke, Arigatou, Nandri, Xie Xie, Terima Kasih.

On Cam-whoring.

Need I say more.

On the freedom of speech and being blunt.

Well the freedom if speech is the 'Holy Grail' of the Malaysian journalistic scene cause its almost impossible to attain. Note that I didn't say impossible. Its moving towards that but it still has quite a big barricade still, although more freedom has indeed been given. The media can be the rise and the fall of a person. I for one truly believe that the press should have the freedome to investigate anything, government included. But its not gonna happen.

Now being blunt. Thats how I approach almost everything. Well uptill a year back. I'm conforming to the world, I know. But often times people can't handle the truth. So why give the truth to people who can handle it. They'll just get mad about it anyway and you might end up hurting someone cause not every one has a big heart. Even a big heart has limits.

They say if you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything. They left out "even if it is the truth.

I was very tempted to type something that is true but really, really mean at the same time. I didn't do it.

Told you I was conforming to the world.

You must be wondering why am I posting something so politically provocative. Well maybe not 'so' but its politically provocative to an extent at least.

Well the papers said that blogs will never influence the world.

With the new age of blogging filled with just the showing off of photos (no offence to the picture loving bloggers) and very little word value its really no surprise. Blogging in the hands of a few Martin Luther Kings, a few Winston Churchhills, I believe it can be a great impact on society. So I'm going to dedicate some time to writing a few entries like this one. not all but may be 1 post in 4 or 5.

On the lack of good blogskins.

Well I for one think my previous blogskin has a theme thats unbecoming of me. In what way? Thats for you to figure out. But you'll have to do that on your own effor cause I have changed the layout.

Well while hunting for blogskins I found that all the blogskins I browsed through were either too girly or really ugly. And trust me I went through quite a bit. Maybe I'm just not good at looking for blogskins.

So.....

I went back to blogger and got a minima scheme. Blue, You can't go wrong with blue. Its cliche I know bur hey, I'm a fan.

Well on other things. Namingly gaming.

From the Playstation 2 to the PC. Right now I'm playing this awesome Strategy game titled, Warhammer 40000: Dawn Of War, Dark Crusade.

It is set in the future on the planet Kronos. It features a few races that seem to be the futuristic fantasy characters. It has good game play, graphics and not that bad a story.

Well thats all for now more updates and upgrades to come.

I was reminded of Bayu Beach Resort yesterday. Lots of fond memories of that place. That also happenes to be the place I first met Elysha way back when i was much, much younger (If my memeory serves me right that is. Its been failing me quite frequently). It also reminded me of Canaan Church. I haven't seen my friends from that area in a long, long while. Ah, memories. Things are less complicated then than they are now.

I wonder would I still be the same person I am today if I had decided differently on some of the decision I had to make in my life. Might I have been better? Or worst perhaps? Life has a lot of variables that one cannot fully work out the outcome I guess. And I don't think I turned out that bad. I have my short comings but so far I'm very happy with my life and the people around me.

Just, could it have been better?

No, I don't actually think so. (I could do better at Uni tho =))

Camp! Camp!

You can find all kinds of funny things about "yourself" on the net. Well at least what a computer thinks anyway. Here is one about my birthday. Its coming up by the way! *Hint*

Your Birthdate: June 15

For you, love is a natural progression from friendship. You are almost always friends first.
In love, you are loyal, steady, and honest. You are not a cheater or even much of a flirt.
You are likely to stay friends with your ex... and open to rekindling something in the future.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 6

You are most compatible with people born on the 6th, 15th, and 24th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Here's the stupid thing, how can a person have four true loves? And man, 6 times?(dude! I must be stupid). I can flirt pretty well okay! LOL.

Its a good week. Man Utd are champs. My college escape act is almost done. I don't need to see that bias lecturer anymore. I got my laptop (YAY! 2gb RAM~). I waited for so long and its a nice bonus. Gaming has been fun too. Working on a facelift for the blog. It might happen, it might not. Movie day is tomorrow! This week is good indeed.

I met up with an old friend today. We had breakfast in Damansara. Indeed an eye opener to me. He has changed so much. He has hardened hin heart. Hardly trusts anyone anymore. The people you keep around you has an effect on the person you are. I spent some time in the evening re-evaluating the relationships I have around me.

On to something totally unrelated.

Eyes. The windows to your soul. I feel they say alot about you. Some are warm, some are confident. Some can be vicious, some, manic. So watch what you say with your eyes. They expose you more than you know.

The Path Never Taken

Illustrations Courtesy of Granada Espada

Khinzir Liar!!!

Had a fun day yesterday. I spent a day with Iain and Tze Mien (Haha!). Went to the movies. Well Cineleisure to be exact. Well since Spiderman 3 was sold out (AGAIN!), we went to see Wild Hogs. I cannot remember the last time I laughed so hard. Good movie. Solid comedy cast of Tim Allen (Home Improvement), John Travolta (Ghost Rider, Be Cool), Martin Lawrence (Big Momma's House, Bad Boys) and another dude I don't recognize, but good nontheless, its a must watch. So many movies to watch so little time. Blades of Glory, Fantastic Four, Spiderman, Pirates, So, SO many more! Bleh luckily my last paper is today. 1 month off!

Well ADUN cup is starting this Saturday night. Haven't played in a game this big in a while. getting kinda jittery. The weather is not helping to. Bleh! Well off to the cafeteria!

Fear ME!

Well I saw alot of blogs with the tarot card on them. I fell in love with the illustration so I decided to take the quiz up. I didn't understand some of the questions so I "hentam" a few. The results is shocking. Well not actually. All of you fear me! For I am the...

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

I laughed myself silly! I am a man of "money or erotic power, agressive, controling or just persuasive". Persuasive maybe, but "erotic power"? "Controling"? I can't control anything. Too playful to control nuts. Ambitious, yeah that about right. I don't believe in this stuff but this really gave me a good laugh. Go find out what tarot card you are. Drop me msg is you are a fellow devil or worse, death. I'll laugh with you. The illustration is nice though.

Well I have done my good deed for the week. Now I hope it doesn't backfire on me. Four hours. Quite a long wait. But I guess it'll be worth the wait. Lets see how it goes. Should be ok, I hope.

Exams are leaving me in the state of emo-ness. Well I know it comes and goes but one tends to wonder. All this helping others, when will it be time to help myself. Its not that I'm incapable. Picky perhaps? That or maybe I'm just scared. Well its not like she's giving me the time of day. Bleh. Dr. Phil I need you!....... NOT!~

Well at least I'm not selling myself short, picking anything that comes by (like a few people I know)and i have some sense of taste (unlike some people I know). Well thats something to be proud of, I guess (and the people who are reading this all has good taste so I'm no refering to you!)

OK, Emo session over. Now concentrate on keeping my good deed going. Plus I need to study.
Life is Interesting when you're sane till love makes you go insane. So... Kids stay away from love, it'll drive you nuts. LOL.

OUT~

The No. 9 jersey is set to make a comeback this May 8.

Yes ladies and gentlemen, I'm returning to the world of competitive basketball. Finally. Basketball. My first love. Might be more competitive and harder to win than cheer but at least I won't be sacrificing my manly-ness (like some people I know).

I'm trading the bunch of cheerleaders for my close homies. Training has already begun and already It feels just like home. My true element. 5 hours of basketball training is bound to tire your legs. I can't feel mine but its fun nonetheless. All of us are really rusty but we'll get there.

And I got My old number back. Nine. Well gotta go rest.

I don't understand.

I realized that I don't understand alot of things in life. These things are baffling and I am yet to find an answer.

People.

Complex creatures. Most of them do not know how to appreciate the simple things in life. Things like fame and money sway them easily. Being rich and famous isn't all its cut out to be. Don't believe me? Open a tabloid. There goes their private life.

They also throw love away like it grows on trees. Well maybe it does. I just haven't been able to find the tree. Heh.

Politics.

This is one subject I have never understood. People backstabing and destroying each others reputation while desperately protecting thier own. The best thing is, the public actually votes for these kind of people.

Malaysian food.

Why does it taste so good!

Girls.

Need I say more XD

Well class beckons. Need to hand in my article.

I don't understand.

I realized that I don't understand alot of things in life. These things are baffling and I am yet to find an answer.

People.

Complex creatures. Most of them do not know how to appreciate the simple things in life. Things like fame and money sway them easily. Being rich and famous isn't all its cut out to be. Don't believe me? Open a tabloid. There goes their private life.

They also throw love away like it grows on trees. Well maybe it does. I just haven't been able to find the tree. Heh.

Politics.

This is one subject I have never understood. People backstabing and destroying each others reputation while desperately protecting thier own. The best thing is, the public actually votes for these kind of people.

Malaysian food.

Why does it taste so good!

Girls.

Need I say more XD

Well class beckons. Need to hand in my article.

"Accept it. There is no use denying it. Just go with it. Just don't overdo it"

-Kelvin Goh =)

This post is for all those lovesick puppies. Yeah I know alot of those puppies. I guess its that time of year again. Go out and get those flowers, that soft toy, those chocolates, that card. Write a song, sing a song, write a poem. Enjoy yourself doing it. If its not meant to be, well at least you had fun. Just don't over do it. It scares people.

P.S: Falling in love is sweet but It might not be the right time (and He/She is just not into you) so do this on your own risk. But really, enjoy urself.

Life as I've come to understand it has changed.

A whole new outlook on life was revealed to me over the weekend. At times (most of the time) I tend to take things too seriously. The more I look back the more I see that its true. I am a cirlcle dude. People who are circles (70% of asians) are obssesive. This was revealed to me by a short and funny Singaporean. The irony of that fact is hilarious.

I'm also not the most trusting person (well I was never that trusting) but some how now that I reflect on it, it becomes clearer to me why. The causes has been identified but because I can't change the cause, I'll have to change the way i perceive the cause.

Its amazing that how you perceive something can change your outlook on life.

Now the outlook on life might have changed but to implement these changes, it'll takes some time but I'll get there.

Lets not take life to seriously~

Readjustment.

Thats the word this week. A few presentations are due but thats about it.

Now I need to readjust some stuff. Bleh.

I am still as fit as i used to be *pause* NOT! (The 1st problem I have to rectify)
Need to excersize.

A blog layout revamp will be happening withing the next month I hope. I'll be posting a lot more too. Things have been changing to rapidly, time to just slow it down.

Now, something totally unrelated.

Blogs invaded. Plagued by hordes of pictures. Blogs have evolved from journal to cam-whore heaven. The art of expression thru words on blogs is defiled by these colourful intruders. A mesh of both would be nice but some are just filled with pictures. The meaning of blogs has indeed evolved.

Just a random thought.

*Exhales*

Finally the week that all my assignment are due and no more is given out. Finally.

I've been so stretched for time.

With the ending of all this I finally can go back to my normal carefree life BAH!

OH WELL, presentation time!

P.s: If you could only see me now. I look like some CEO.

Panda-fied.

Yes you read right.

I am now a panda.

Insomnia is my new best friend. The amount of sleep I got last night? 2 hours! The upside? I finished my assignments. Its like I went for a late night foos session. My day started early too. Some extended family members came down. Mother not around. Sister choose to sleep in. For my dad to go alone just doesn't seem right. So... I went.

The week-end was filled with a number of events. Journalism exam was on 3rd. I went so footsal after that.

Extended family came down on Saturday.

Saw extended family off the next morning. Total amount of sleep?

6 hours in 3 days. Fantastic!

TM nut is really getting on my nerves. Not only did they take 5 days to fix my connection on the Lunar New Year. It only lasted a week. Today connection went haywire again.

A word to sum up the week?

UNEVENTFUL.

But then again, the past 3 weeks was mostly all like that.

I realized something. I can't do it. I just can't seem to do it.

Time. Need... More... Time...

Never seem to have enough time to do anything nowadays. I know what they say about everybody having an equal amount of 24 hours a day but most people don't have the same amount of things they want to do.

My assignment have been coming in the twos and threes. Pass three up and in comes the next set of threes. Not to mention the amount of meetings I have to attend this week. I'll be lucky to have time for hanging out even.

Having a mild case of insomnia now. I can't sleep much. 3 in the morning and my brain is still on overdrive. No coffee, no tea, just me. Because of my classes I can't sleep in too. Bah...

With having not enough time comes sacrifices. Sleep, foosball (sorry guys), TV-time, Gaming time (*sob*SOB*), eating time (not too many of those tho), Yam cha time (sorry again guys) and all that jazz. No luxuries. Suffer Kelvin! Suffer! What doesn't kill you will make you suffer. You can quote me on that. But I'm stil hanging on. It hasn't been all that bad. To the nicer times of the pass week or so.

Youth Fei Lo Ship (Fellowship). Well your basic Youth fellowship until it ended of course. Our usual course of action would be to go for foosball but we didn't.

It started when Ee Leen made a sarcastic suggestion (you really won't be able to tell whether shes being sarcastic or not) to go to her place and litterally "Yam Cha" or drink tea. This was, of course a half hearted suggestion but all of us being in the extremely random state that we were in (You can ask Pei Yi, she'll vouch for me) we made it a reality.

At Ee Leen's place we had Naan, Tosai and chinese tea with the little tea cup (and yes I mean "LITTLE"). More laughs and random-ness ensued.

Owh well... back to college life. Heads up!

On a week I might want to forget.

I have a feeling this is one of those week which I would want to sleep thru and not wakeup till the next.

And its a Monday.

A bad incident happened yesterday (I won't go into details) and right after that I bumped my knee into something. That was a sunday. Today, the pain got worst. If only it ended there...

Knowing me? No such luck.

Monday morning. Class starts at 2. Decided to take the bus. Again, nothing goes my way. The vice calls me up and says I need to be in the campus grounds ASAP. So I took a cab, 4 hours before class starts. Thats 11 bucks down the drain.

My knee is killing me.

In a really hostile mood.

Plus I have to see the secretary from hell the whole of this week. I swear that girls has issues. My heart is in a very weak state. I might say something I would regret. God help me. Shoot! Another week to struggle with.

Really not looking forward to this.

Life is no longer as simple as it used to be.

I seem to be a little more stressed out every day and some of my uni-mates aren't helping. One or two of them acting like stuck up - Well you get the picture. And these are the people I have to work with for the rest of the year. People are entitled to their opinons.

High school. The carefree days. My high school life was just 2 things, Basketball and studying. Never have I felt any kind of stress those days. Now, the traffic jam causes stress, the food prices causes stress, the subject causes stress, the public transport causes stress and the people causes stress. Practically everything drives me up the wall. Huff.. Ok now that thats off my chest..... On to better things.

Beef Noodles! Hing Loong Noodle House! SS21! you have to eat there. The soup is so kaw(Rich)!
One of the best I've tasted so far, but then again, I've never tasted Seremban Beef Noodles. So when are we going down to seremban people?

On Rally 07, People, The new year and Goodbyes.

Surf's Up! Way to start of the new year with a bang. After the worst Christmas and New Year in my entire life, this is exactly what the doctor ordered. No photos up till now but I will link a few once i find some. I didn't take any myself. The best rally I've had the pleasure of being a part of so far. Just can't wait for next year. Ah, but that can wait. First things first, USHZ CAMP 07!

People. You'd figure after 3 or 4 years you'd know them but somehow that thought will give you a huge surprise. People are unpredictable. Someone you've had respect for might just pull something you'd never thought possible. People you thought had nothing in common with you are actually are the only ones that truly understand who you are and where you come from. People you grew up with might have a huge grudge on you. You'll never know. When it comes to people, you just have to allow the unexpected. You can't expect it but you can allow it.

The new year is here. So many changes. New people starting a new phase of life in college and university. New resposibilities for some and new start for others. Usually people write a long thank you list but me being the simple person I am will just thank everyone thats been part of my life so far, all 21 years of it, that way I won't leave anyone out. My new years resolution is to take more photos!

Ah, goodbyes. Parting is such sweet sorrow? I think not. Its bitter. but yet I have to say so many. Stanley leaves for Melbourne tomorrow. Ryan leaves soon too. Kim, Kian and Jin leaves to Melbourne in Feb. Some people even left before i could say goodbye, Sern, Vern and Aud are amongst some of them. Next year more people will be leaving. So much more. Bleh, such is life. I need to get a private plane.