Sunday, September 11, 2011
I thank you for following this blog thus far (I know there aren't many of you). Many things have happened, both good and bad and soon things will fall into place, I hope.
This is the last post I'll be posting up on this blog. After this my retarded journey will no longer be mine alone. So goodbye dear faithful and severely neglected blog. I shall miss thee.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
I was recently woken up abruptly to run an errand that required me to drive - really fast. I was during that time that the morning traffic decided to be heavier that usual. It is also then when a myriad of pedestrians decide to come out. Interestingly enough, the way these pedestrians walk can symbolize quite a number of things.
The Overly Cautious
There are those who need the road to be completely clear before being able to cross the road. These people wait and wait and sometimes miss out on an opportune time to actually cross the road much earlier.
The Overly Reckless
It doesn't matter whether the car is a mile or 20 yards away. When they decide to cross, they cross. They don't usually take too long to decide when to cross mind you.
The Jay-walkers
These are the ones that cross halfway, stops in the middle, waits for you to pass, and then continue to make their way across. What they don't realize is that motorcycles use the space hat they wait in to overtake.
The "Now? Maybe now? NOW!"
These people have issues. They jump out to cross, scare the drivers half to death and then decide its to dangerous to cross and pulls back. Sometimes they don't do it once but many, many times
Sounds a lot like the way people go through life doesn't it?
Monday, March 14, 2011
Shadowed in the dark of night, I lay awake, listening to the fan cut through the air and silence.
Just an hour or so ago, I poured out my heart into an email that would probably have repercussions of its own at a later date. But at least my stand is made. That being said, a road that is paved with good intentions will probably end in suffering.
Yet, most of us, myself included, are known to botch things up so badly that seemingly life-long bonds are broken. Why is it that good intentions hurt people so?
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Its not easy trying to do things that you've lost all interest in doing. No, I'm not talking about writing, I love writing too much. It's the conditions in which I'm writing in that is a kill joy. Now with that removed, laziness steps in.
That being said, I actually am having fun writing my last piece for the magazine. It has something to do with heroes and I guess it's quite a fun subject. I can't say that I haven't had fun working here. I will definitely miss most of the people here.
Everything has been set in motion. It's probable that I won't be in the country by the end of the year. I have lots to take into account. One of it being my parents and the venture I am embarking on. I still fear for a lot of matters that have not been set in stone. Plans are done but it starts with a leap of faith.
Change is good. I guess.
There is one other matter which weighs heavy on my mind.
Be clear about one thing: These words ring from the heart.
You can say all you want about not deserving to get hurt but when you hurt others, you deserve all the hurt you can get. I believe that somethings are never to be broken. You are not as innocent as you make yourself out to be, having used somebody (apt ain't it) and discard them when use is no longer required.
Yeah, I know. I. Don't. Know. Period. And yeah I maybe don't. But I know there are better ways to go about it and I thought that you, a person I placed at a place of respect in my eyes, would know how to go about it. We looked up to you. But yeah. I. Don't. Know. Shit.
And bro (for the last time), You placed yourself as a source of comfort to him only to trample on his feelings. You were supposed to be a brother. Unbreakable codes were broken. Forget codes, it just wasn't an honorable way to do it. He trusted you, the least you could do was ask him.
I stood up for you, in earnest, because I believed in you. Because I thought you were a bro. I would have stood up for you till the day that I died. For the both of you.
In both accounts I was wrong. I dunno why it's impacting me the way it is, but it is. So in that I cast the first stone, to the ground. I was quite upset when I set out to write this but it kinda dissolved, and my thoughts probably never mattered in the first place. Plus I don't think the stone deserves it.
Be clear. It not what you did, it's how you did it. I hope that your decision proves to be a fruitful one, for in exchange for it, memories will lay in the past. Today my ties are cut.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
There is a certain relief in freedom that not many can really explain. It was yesterday that some of the best advertising ideas came to me. The experiences I have had here has taught me so much. The people I met,why I should never forsake family (I've literally seen first hand what that can do) and how not to treat people working under you.
Moving on, I will be embarking on something I have really wanted to do for a long time. It'll be a painstaking process but at least I'll have it on my time without having to give up my life or soul. It would also be a great learning process before I get a change of scenery.
On to better things.
The MAFFA regular season starts in a week's time. Confidence is one thing, but injuries are currently plaguing our roster and I don't know how we'll far we'll go like this. We can't afford to lose anybody but I guess I am really looking forward to this season. My last as an active member of the Tridents.
Who knows, this time next year, I'll be wearing pads and a helmet and wearing the number 31 instead. We'll see how it goes. Embassy here I come.
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
2011. A year of Exodus for me and those around me. A journeyman year for me personally, my wife, as we face life together, a new chapter for my football team, The Tridents, as we go on the road to win a championship, and for many around me, this year marks a start of a new journey.
And like any journey, sacrifices have to be made. With my journey, moving to a place where I'm not all too comfortable, much sooner than even I expected, isn't some thing that I'm too thrilled about. Unfortunately, it is something that is necessary and something that is key to my future plans.
The Exodus experience isn't something everyone goes through. In fact, very few get to experience some thing so life changing. I guess I'm lucky in that sense. On the flip side, I would have to leave the life that I am so accustomed to, behind. Friends, experiences and other things like that.
This time next year I may be padded up, playing full-contact football with the PIrates (possibly) rather than trying to win the MAFFA league here, as a Trident. The one thing that is making this very easy is work.
Looking to the future, this is the move that will make or break my future. It has to work out I guess. I must succeed where others have failed. For the sake of my family. Trying to get things organized is quite tough. And it continues.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Current state: In a cold room, bundled up and sneezing
The place itself is filled with tension so thick you can cut through it. Slamming this, throwing that. Yeah maybe it ain't that dramatic but it doesn't mean that the tension ain't real. I'm just bored with all the mood throwing. I don't like it but I guess I'm gonna have to live through it.
I need to find more time for myself. I haven't done any photography projects in awhile and if I don't, I'm gonna lose touch. But My job doesn't really permit that. I need to figure out what is it I really want to do.
Growing up Sucks.
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Well, I got to start somewhere. But hey lets not kill chickens before they even hatch.
At the end of the exams, looking back in retrospective, this has to be the most challenging semester without question.
I mean in term of hard the subjects are.. Well geez, it has to be challenging if you have a lecturer that is perpetually having a menstrual cycle on overdrive, another that comes into class and talks about his wife, kids and 102 girlfriends, and my personal favorite, the lecturer that teaches us by having us listen to student presentations and not tell us he is going to use those random journals for the exams. Whoop-dee-do.
The taking of a part-time job, probably wasn't the wisest choice I made. Because of that, I saw how good people change for the worst. But in that process I did gain alot more from that loss.
Being desperate for attention and affection is no good? Yeah I would say it isn't. But I'll just wait for the time I can go I told you so. As of now, I'll be ignorant.
Ooo thats one more skill I acquired, to be ignorant. Opinions, no matter how right it is, is usually not welcomed. I learned this from church, from uni and from a select few of my "friends". People just don't want to hear that they have made a mistake. This thankfully, doesn't happen withing my close circle of friends.
There are good things happening as well though. A lot of it. Probably the reason why I can still smile at the end of it all.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Yeah people! Ya heard!? Its all true as of this time next month I shall no longer be a Starbucks Barista. I will tender my resignation in the coming days.
The reason? Well something that was said last week - The fact that we just load ourself up with more responsibilities and even more responsibilities after that and later complain bout not having the time for oneself to relax - really got to me.
So obviously it doesn't take long for me to come to the conclusion that amidst my ever growing assignment workload and church duties perhaps it is better I do not load myself with a side job which I took at a whim being backed by a university buddy who has some what changed for the worst since recent events and doesn't realize it (but who am I to judge her, its her life), with me not really needing the money much.
SO.. three days worth of deliberations and after seeking counsel with my inner circle of advisors I decided to call it quits today. I have to say I'm feeling quite good about it.
There are other inside factors, though none of them major factors, made it very much easier for me to come to this conclusion, however there are those who I will not forget during this lifetime and I hope they are blessed the way they have been a blessing to me.
And so with a slightly heavy heart and lifted burden from my back I prepare to bid thee goodbye green apron, thou hast been funeth whileth it lasteth.
Monday, August 04, 2008
There is three things a man cannot escape; death, judgement and change. Lately changes have left me having to step out of my own comort zone and forcing me to take a wider view of the rosy picture I've painted for myself and I realize that where I dwell is but a place where a person like me has no place. Or so I thought.
I shall not name any names, though as tempted as I am to give these people a piece of my mind, has made me question certian things that go on in church. Question it so much in fact that I barely recognized that place anymore.
But some how things that God put in my life more recently forced me to take step further back to realized I'm not meant to drone on these things. I was given these gifts by God and as little as these gifts are, it is meant to glorify He who gave me the gifts. Yeah sounding a little happy clappy but its true, I get so wound up in my overthinking I forget the fundamentals of the faith which is to forgive.
And so as of today no matter how much *blank* I go through this blog shall edify and not ridicule.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
The 2 reasons for this frequent phenomenon is that I am either...
a) Too busy with my life to blog
b) There is nothing worth blogging about
Today however I need to rant. This has been a bad week, somewhat. An this is a tale of two people.
Price of petrol has gone up. Agitated that Malaysians are so cheapskate that they have to clog up the highways and streets to get petrol before the price hike is such a Malaysian thing to do. And we say Singaporeans are 'Kia Su'. That was irritation number one.
Irritation number two is a person I shall call 'Queen'. Queen is a person who, I don't know how to put this...
a) expects you to call him/her and asking him/her if he/she is car pulling with you the next day instead of calling you to inform you.
or..
b)Deems it his/her right to let you drive to his/her place the next morning, wasting your petrol (which has gone up in price by 40% mind you) and time just to find out you didn't have to pick him/her up.
or BOTH.
And this is the second time. (Well he/she was sick the 1st time this happened so its forgiven)
And has the cheek to ask "why am I always making him angry?".
Now suddenly he/she drives.
The funny thing is this, I'm not angry that he/she doesn't drive eventhough he/she can. Its the 'not informing me or another person in the carpool that you're not coming' part that irritates me. A simple sorry would suffice but I guess some people are above that.
The other major irritation happened today. You say something wrong, your friends/groupmates in good humour tease you about it and you...
Blow up (may be too strong a word) in their faces.
Then once you cool down, you ask a person that you scolded for no reason why is he/she sulking, and scold him/her again because he/she is angry at you for (insert matter stated earlier). Any apologies? Didn't think so.
Fair? Very I guess, by the world's standards.
Yeah I sound fickle but hey if you don't rant after being put in these situations and not by means of ignorance, gimme an e-mail, You can be my mentor.
On to other stuff that annoy me is... Office politics.
I'm no employee of the month, but I do my job and I do it somewhat well. But blaming me because I have other more pressing responsibilities (my church, my dog, my house) than going to some trip up in the highlands is a wee bit unfair. But owh well. Hate me all you want.
Yeah its been quite a week. I'm tired.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
Its been a long, LONG time since the last update. This blog has somewhat died and to be quite frank I may not be updating as frequently as I used to. Picture and video blogging eh?
Well, I've finished my internship with The Star newspaper, a truly enlightening experience to the job market I've offered myself to. There is the good and the bad. I did not opt to extend and boy was I glad when it was over. I spent more money then I earned.
My baby's B'day also passed. Many plans on that day. Poor planing for the last one, which seemed more like people trying to use us for transportation (Well I was notified of the time in the afternoon of that very day even though it has been planned for a week in advance. I only knew I had to pick people 3 hours before the event. You tell me). Baby was somewhat upset, I was furious. So I brought her out for shopping the next day for her presents.
The next week we had another B'day celebration with Jee and Whales (Jee confirmed my suspicions) and we watched the very first commercial screening of Iron Man in Sunway Pyramid. The show was highly enjoyable and It was nice to see baby enjoying herself.
And so the celebrations are over and I'm short of cash. So i took up a job as a barista. Doing well so far and I am enjoying it. Updates on the job soon.
Now on to my personal ramblings.
LIFE is like a hollywood movie. Its always about a girl and things change at such a fast pace you wouldn't believe it. I'm going thru some major adjustments like returning to my duties in church and the ministry I serve in as well as nuturing a relationship.
In terms of the relationship, it has not been all sweet roses. Still working on it and hopefully we'll get it right. Need to iron out these minor lump before the battle with time and distance.
On another note.
So many things happened while I was away. Someone left, reasons are unknown to me still. All I know there was a breakdown involved. Why and how is still not known and I fear it will never be. This same person also slammed the phone on me after I declined his invertation to go out for supper due to Mother's Day practice. At mothers day practice more things happened which I will not mention here. Avoidable, people related 'mishaps' (I use mishaps because I cannot find a better word) which I may not understand completely.
But they happen and still life goes on. The person who slammed the phone on me, has in the past caused me strife and I just don't indulge in his company anymore. Eventhough sorries have been said sometimes you forgive but you heart and mind doesn't let you forget. I think he knows how that feels now and I sympatize with him, its a sucky feeling. All the best to you in your soul searching.
I've looked up to people, and often times I'm let down. Because people are people I guess. My Dad always asked me, "If God was perfect why did he create something after his own likeness that isn't perfect?,". I think I'm slowly understanding why.
Owh well and life goes on.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
But for me, I never want to work late if not paid well.
***
There has been talks of boicotting the Malaysian newspapers circulating through SMSs and e-mails because of unfair media coverage which usually favors the ruling party.
Well being a citizen alone I would so agree with that statement and would be one of the first to do so.
But a note to consider* - My arrogant and ignorant uncle says that he hasn't been reading the news papers for 6 months and instead comes over and sells my gullible mother rumors which validity is really unknown (My uncle's a tall tale kinda person, acts like he knows alot but really, knows squat). And my mom would buy it (my disliking for my Mom's choices are another thing altogether).
So where are you gonna get your news?
The internet? Malaysiakini perhaps. A site, though giving Malaysians an alternative to news, is lop-sided towards the opposition and hell bent to goventment bashing in the way they write. We'll thats just my opinion. Maybe support the online versions of The Star, NST and the Sun? Give them a chance to start charging for it? Or just be as ignorant as my 'uncle'.
Now I'm speaking as a person who has been in the media scene.
People do not realize that The Star has been closed down for persuing investigative journalism and uncovering more than it should have. So fear to cross that line is still there. People are still trying to make a living. And the rest of the news publications are just learning from that mistake. Not to mention the political ties of newspaper companies and the segment parties of the ruling coalition.
That what these people sending out those SMSs and e-mails don't understand. This not so free press is the doing of the ISA and OSA the PPPA all those As. Reporters are humans, with bills to pay, families to provide for, loans to pay for and etc. So get of you high horses and start bringing down the ISA, OSA and PPPA if you want a balanced press not boicot the newspapers.
***
Its been a bad month for me. Within this month I've had financial, relationship, family and personal problems.
My GF's phone was snatched earlier this month and recently had a boo-boo on the road. Had me worried sick. Had quarrels too.
My income is not lving to the out put. I spend RM100 on petrol alone every week. Four weeks in a month makes the grand total RM400. My income is a measly 300 smacks. Tough.
Ah family problems. Mother dearest is at it again. in 1999 she shifted to Subang with out consulting me at least. And I had to live the the consequence. In 2004 I shifted to USJ 3 just because of feng shui talk between my cocker uncle and my mom buying all the, to me, hogwash. And again, the person who had to uproot everything and do heavy lifting, reschdule all activities be acuse of the heavy lifting is the father and the kids, naming ly the son, because he has teh muscles. And lets make it a third one. This year she said lets renovate. After hearing what the neighbours had said while comparing houses, she decided she didn't want to lose out. And after many sleepless nights, now I have to lift stuff, endure my mom's poor decisions and bad timing and all the holier than thou rantings.
My mom is like the BN govenment. More often then not, it doesn't deliver. Yeah, yeah, be grateful you wretch. I can almost hear some of the 'people' say. Well its not a sin to disagree you bunch of holy bags.
M and my man bro have been having problems of late. Again I feel their pain. Gossip mongers putting unneeded pressure on. I'm really angered by those douche bags.
Ahh but there is good news. No one got killed and everyone is strengthened because of it. The month seems to be smoothing out. I've learned and become a better person. More understanding too I hope.
Thanks to people who I least expected for supporting me.
Ja-ne.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Its been a busy two weeks. I haven't had the chance to upload pictures let alone blog. I got tagged by eileen so I would have to do this. I don't usually do all these things but i really have no photos to blog with.
So here it goes...
1. When you look into the mirror…
It cracks
2. When did you last saw someone picking their nose?
When I looked into the mirror? LOL
3. What are you doing now?
Actually replying this nonsensical meme as I have nothing to do at work right now.
4. What would be the best birthday present?
Anything from people I love would be good... I guess the present really doesn't matter. It the person i receive it from.
6. Who annoyed you recently?
Hmmm I shall not name names as I want to keep the peace. Just note that Two-faced people disgust me. It worst if they have a tendency to back stab.
7. Where did you meet your loved one? If you have yet to find, where do you plan to meet him/her?
In the hall way of my university. Yeah I know lame right? I can't go like we bumped into each other while we were busy looking at the stars and we suddenly fell in love *cheese cheese cheese*. I live in reality unfortunately.
8. How will you use this meme for the benefit of mankind?
I shall benefit mankind by not tagging anyone and subjecting them to such torture. LOL
Sunday, March 09, 2008
The opposition has finally denied Barisan National 2/3 majority. As of today Kedah, Perak, Pulau Pinang and Selangor joins Kelantan, being ruled by opposition parties.
This interesting turn of events will give a chance to PKR and DAP to prove their worth. Quite frankly, being Chinese. I place no trust in PAS.
The people have spoken. Lets see how the opposition does. Lets see whether the corruption level goes down. BN need to change.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
(I've had enough of the unfair advantage and low tactics deployed by BN.)
Ask yourself what do you really want?
There are those overseas who still believe that Malaysia is a jungle country. I don't blame them. We have Datuk Zainudin Maidin, the Minister of 'Information' who stuttered so badly when being interviewed by Al-Jazeera that he made Jin look like an amature rapper. Not to mention he contradicted himself so many times when talking about democracy. Let this be known people, the democracy in Malaysia is like the Sultan.
Then we have our sleeping Prime Minister. Nuff said.
This 8th of March what are you voting for?
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Gundam models on display in a room. If only I could break in... to take better close up. LOL
This is Chelle and the band Pg 168. These guys were tight. All the best persuing stardom.
Ok so at this point we were already bored. So we decided to cruise the town is search of food. Forget the historical sites, show me the food! Though because of the time constraint and because we were without a guide, we only went to a few places.
This place was awesome. The third place in my list of the best curry mee around. It only loses out to the one in Kajang and Sarawak.
The noodles only costs RM2.50 for a small bowl and 3.50 for a big one. I felt that it was really a good price. And we found it while walking down the street looking for a place to eat coz we couldn't decide what to have for breakfast.
And next...
The girls absolutely loved this part of the trip. I have to say, I was impressed with what some of these shops had to offer. A gun shaped lastik for rm5, a kendo stick for RM10 and a wooden replica od a katana. They even sold a bunch of really interesting souverneirs for a real low price... Well considering.
Then came lunch....
Then for desert...
We stopped by the cafe next door called Nadeje Cafe. Now this cafe was a classier establishment from the rest and it served a very interesting sorta dessert. Alcoholic cocktails are also cheaper here.
Don't be fooled by the tea and soda. This baby had alcohol. A good dose of it. Not enough to knock a drinker like me out but it tasted good.
Now on to the desserts...
Its basically layers upon layers of crepe with cream seperating the layers. Tastes so good! To bad I haven't found any restauraunt of the same kind in KL. Can't compare.
Well I have to get a better camera. The Nikon Coolpix L3 seems to blur out the picture with the slightest movement. Loads of other photos were ruined.
We went for Cendol and some onde-onde after that. The Cendol was so-so but the onde-onde was scrumptous. The gula Melaka melts in your mouth. After that we went to get the ever commercialized chicken rice balls for dinner to go. Wanted to go for the Hainan chicken rice mentioned by Sean but I wasn't sure which stall it was and so I didn't want to risk it. Plus It was getting late.
It rained cats and dogs as well. LOL.
Well thats all folks. Ja-ne.
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Let me just highlight the one thing that might have been a frowner last Sunday, some idiot stole my baby's phone at the MIDVALLEY KTM station. This shall be know as the 'incident'.
Well lets begin.
It was the weekend I was looking forward to the whole of last month. Celebrating the birthdays of 3 very important people to me outside my family.
The aspiring artist, and future writer
3. Pauline "WHALE" Wong The only person I can say I enjoy verbally abusing (She fights back mind you) and our resident goblok.
Well as you can see, I'm broke this month so you can write all your donation cheques to 'The Save a Resident Retard' foundation. All donations are highly appreciated.
We ate at Chilli's Midvalley for Pauline and Jee's celebration.
Goodness, the portions are huge. I have to say that after the main course I was stuffed and could hardly eat anymore but some how I downed dessert, I'm so proud! Everything was well worth the money. I have to say that I was happy after that. Here's what we had.
This was what my baby had. I forgot the name. I will edit it in. She had such a hard time finishing it.
This is what Whales had. Lamb Shoulder Steak - Med Rare. So tender and juicy! The tastes was so good. The mash potatoes were some of the best I ever had. The fries were good too.
Well we got dessert on the house cause it was their birthday. Well they didn't want the staff to come out and sing to them, they said it was embarassing. I had other plans.
I went of to tell a member of the staff to set a little somthing up to surprise them. It was spoilled when a waitress came to confirm the order with me infront of them. But it was good nonetheless.
After that the girls went off to do what they do best. Shopping. The guys went to the arcade where, I let the Birthday Boy win (I'm denying that I suck so badly at arcade games LOL). Well we then called it a day after baby bought a pair of killer heels. 4-inches I think.
Ok The KTM was late again! So of course the people piled up quite badly. Two guys of of them were not actually there to get on the train. Thats when the 'Incident' happened. The rush of people was so bad that I couldn't get out of the train to give chase to those idiots. Damn junkies. Be aware of a tall gay looking Malay man wearing a sholl and metallic pink nike's together with a short dweeb, also malay, with a hunched back.
Luckily, baby kept her composure and immediately barred her phone. It was quite impossible to trace the phone so that was the least she could do, so that she'll get back both her number and credit.
Still the day continues and we refused to let the the incident put us down on such a good day.
Next was Iain's surprise party. A 20 year old celebrating his birthday at A&W. LOL. Funny ain't it? He actually has loads of younger siblings (by young I mean YOUNG). Well the surprise didn't really work coz it was spoiled when he spotted the lot of them at the restauraunt. Though he did get a surprise later, when we dunked him into the pool, with me dealing the final push (What are best buds for bro!). After that I sent a few people home and then spent some time with baby before going home.
Here's to the silver lining being the larger portion of the day.
Happy birthday guys! Cheers.
Ja-ne.